Those of you that follow me on social media may have recently seen my stories and posts about a BIG decision I recently made, which is to leave my current full-time job to peruse my dream of being my own boss and becoming a wedding photographer. I’ve been working towards it for a long time and have been drawn mostly to Wedding photography, so that’s the direction I’ll be driving in at speed as soon as I officially leave my 9-5 office job at the end of February (only 2 weeks – eek!)! I’m also so happy to know that’ll I’ll have more time to get back into blogging a lot more than I have been recently. It was so weird that when I started my first job in digital content marketing, I let me blog fall completely by the wayside! Well, not any more…
Folks keep asking me “Ooo are you nervous?” or, “Wow, isn’t that so scary?!” and my years of programmed small talk often has me reply with “yes – terrifying!” but the truth is, I’m not scared at all! I am more excited and raring to go then I think I have ever been at any other time in my life! Yes, it’ll be a little tough to begin with and there’ll be definite stresses along the way, but there is no more liberating a feeling than knowing my destiny is in my own hands, and that I’m not slogging my guts out every day for someone else’s gain.
I’ve always been someone that has been conflicted by working for someone else – I have a long line of freelancers and self employed members of my family – but the real urge and final push came just at the beginning of this year, at the ripe old age of 32 having worked for someone else since the age of 16! I knew my attitude was dwindling for my current job – a job I was once so over the moon to get. I felt like the more experienced and confident I got in my work, the less appreciation and opportunity there was for my skillset. I felt wildly undervalued and at time taken advantage of, but the truth is, I was just being shown that it was my time to move on. I was being pushed to make the leap into my next step. I recently read The Secret – a book that seems very much like marmite! But it really opened my eyes to possibility and the importance of mental attitude and approach to every day life that dictates your life path completely. I think I’ve spent too long blaming others for my lack of achievement, when really i’ve been holding MYSLF back this hold time, with negative talk and in convincing myself that nothing great would ever happen for me. I had to change- I had to tell myself “I am going to do what I love and be successful at it. I am becoming a wedding photographer.”.
Since reading The Secret, I have gone on to read a lot of Law of Attraction books and listens to many great advocates talk about how it has affected their lives. It has made me realise the importance of appreciation and gratitude for all the wonderful things in my life and that I am blessed to have had the journey I’ve been on so far, as it’s bright me to where I am today. I’ll definitely be writing a much more in-depth post about the Law of Attraction in the coming months, but felt like I needed to at least touch on it in this post, as it’s been so integral to my big leap of faith.
So – yeah! Huge changes coming my way – I am finally becoming a wedding photographer! My stomach is full of butterflies even writing that… I am readying my home office and getting as organised as I can in advance of leaving work in 2 weeks. I’ve booked wedding fayres, launched digital advertising and I’m working on my portfolio every weekend for the last few months. If you’d like to take a look at some of my recent work, you can find my website here: www.fauxeleven.co.uk
That’s it for now – wish me luck guys!